- Mood:
Miserable
Man, where did this month go? I kind of wanted fall to stick around a little longer, but the cold weather's marched in and shows no sign of departing soon.
Lately, I've been feeling... well, not so much unmotivated and uninspired so much as unimportant. Turning 30 this November reminded me of how little I've achieved and how much more I wanted to have already done by this age. It's hard not to be a Debbie Downer, but sometimes Deborah's got some points you can't shake.
I feel like there's nothing I can contribute that'd be of any value to anyone. That's probably not true and there's no other way of expressing that really deep down feeling in my... soul, I guess? That feeling in that part of me that's thinking and alive that keeps pulling at me and saying that I haven't done anything worthwhile yet. I feel like I've run out of time.
I'm still very thankful for the friends I have.